Albert Einstein was so wise when he said “God doesn’t play dice.” You were made perfectly, filled with so much love and light. As life came along day by day, it was like blankets were thrown over you, some by you and some by others so you couldn’t see your true self any more. You were protecting yourself from the coarse world you perceived around you. Others were forcing untrue identities on you and telling you untrue stories. Sometimes they even attacked you energetically. Bruised and battered you retreated under your blankets and you forgot who you are.
The Self within you is gently stirring now, encouraging you to throw off the blankets of identities that are not you. Throw off the “I am too fat, too thin. I am poor. I am ugly. I am unlovable. I deserve to die. I deserve to be punished. I hate the world. Life is hopeless.” mentality. It is your blankets talking and not you.
Take a deep breath and shut your eyes. Briefly touch on a painful experience from your past and feel the tightness somewhere inside you. What you feel is the energetic imprint of that event or part of it. If you have tightness or discomfort in other parts of you, it has probably happened more than once but you may not remember. There are all kinds of theories about past lives and karma but just for a moment, recognize the tightness as a sign post where love is absent. Don’t put any other thoughts or memories on it. Imagine what love would be, whether it is a feeling, a red rose, or whatever comes to your mind and picture yourself filling that tight space with it and say to yourself, “I love how you love me!” Love is all there is and love does conquer all. Feel a different sensation in that place you felt tightness and you will notice the sensation expands a little and you feel slightly different. If you don’t feel anything, don’t worry, just keep repeating the exercise every time you think of it and soon your outer world along with your thoughts will begin to shift.
The love I speak of is not the chick flick romance movie stuff. It is much deeper than that and has the ability to open your life to a much more satisfying experience where you rip off those blankets one by one and gradually come out the other side as a different person. This can be a very painful experience now and then but the rewards of releasing yourself from this dark prison are immeasurable. You will become very different than you are now and you will love who you truly are.